What are you today?

Allah created you with the human trait of conviction. You’re not a leaf that dances and rises and falls with the vicissitudes of the wind. Allah created you to be substantial and weighted, to move with the conviction of your own weight and to consequently forge a new and beautiful path for yourself that is independent of the worries and projections and input of the external. The saddest thing that can happen to you is to live life as a floating feather… a life of reaction to outside stimuli…the stimuli being the projected fears of other people which are by their nature illusionary and rooted in the deception of the great deceiver: shaitan. What are you today? Are you governed by your future potential or are you instead an amalgam of long past external inputs which have travelled through time from the whispers of our common enemy to reach your mind? Are you the captain of your ship? Or is he?

Spoken Word: Tariq Touré

“If under the night you get caught in the cold

With the hundreds of lights that were torn from the mold

And can’t muster the might to find morsels of code

Know the honey in life is sourced in the soul” ~Tariq Touré

New Niqabi 2

So I’ve started wearing niqab (TabarakAllah): see original post here. A friend made me a metallic/ shimmery dark purple half niqab that I wore today and… I felt absolutely beautiful 🌻.

London is in lockdown so I can’t really go anywhere except to the shops. I’m literally itching to go anywhere in niqab lol, I feel more excited than when I first wore hijab.

It’s interesting now I reflect on it that the feeling of internal beauty comes from God and God alone. Today was one of the most beautiful- feeling and confident days that I can remember yet no one could visibly see me.

I’m looking forward to embarking on this niqab journey and cultivating this feeling of internal bliss and calm.

A Soulscape xx

Pt 2. The Truman Show: A Letter to the Distracted Traveler

If you have watched the film The Truman Show you will have observed that all the actors in the life of Truman observed a specific unwavering routine. A certain driver in a car would pass, he would greet the same neighbours at the same time every day. Every eventuality in every day of his life would occur on time. This dance would transpire until the penny dropped in Truman’s mind that his life had been meticulously orchestrated. It was too perfect.

Have you realised dear reader, that you are Truman and your life is not yours?

Every night through the centuries desert dwellers have seen through the light of the stars. Century after century. They have passed now, but the stars continue to loyally observe their purpose. For you; and your children; and your children’s children. If you wake up at the crack of dawn the chorus of the birds begin, day in day out. At sunset the birds flock together and migrate only to repeat the sequence of events the following morning. They do not waver. Again the birds submit to and observe their purpose…right on schedule.

The earth has remained turning for millenia day in day out, darkness to light, light to darkness and repeat. Accommodating your sleep. Accommodating your body clock. Your heart beats without fail and the body grows in stages: held upright while most of us don’t even know the names of the structures and nerves that allow for this to occur. There is power in naming. We have no power because we cannot even name the substances that comprise and sustain us. The body is not ours therefore.

Every 150 years the earth’s population is renewed like wheat in a harvest without delay or question. The planets are kept in loyal orbit and the seasons elapse month after month. Year after year. The human is suspended in the womb and birthed into the world: there is only one way in. And similarly the human must one day leave the earth: there is only one way out. These doorways, entries and exists are a fact of your time here. Year in year out everyone of us passes through both doors. The seed sprouts; the plant one day wilts. Day in day out. The routine is concrete and unwavering. Like the routine Truman observes. Too perfect.

These are certainties that we simultaneously know and don’t know. The mind knows it but you have not thought on it via your innermost core / pure intellect (lubb). These certainties occur without disruption whether or not you realise what is happening.

Traveller, these certainties elapse in your life and you wade through existence absentmindedly immersed in one form of entertainment only to seek out and latch onto another. You are Truman and the penny has not yet dropped. And most will never hear the penny clattering to the ground. Think to yourself as Truman did “what is really happening here?” then crack the code and allow your eyes to pierce through a tapestry of shadows.

The universe exists because you do. It is there to accommodate you. It is at your service because it was created to sustain you for a brief moment of Divine observation before you are sorted and allocated to your actual life.

Today wake up, take action and see into the world through the eyes of your heart….

Peace and Blessings, A Soulscape

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Purification of the heart

“Imam Mawlud says that seeking refuge with God is the most efficacious treatment for all diseases of the heart. Sidi ibn Ashir says “The only real cure for all these diseases is to go to God with complete unconditional imploring”. What is meant here is urgently seeking refuge in God’s protection and guidance, to seek this as if one were holding onto a thread over a canyon. It is begging, which before God is honourable…Imam Mawlud says that one should be like a person drowning in the sea or stranded in a desert without any provision. A moment of desperation can often be the best thing that ever happens to a person.” – Hamza Yusuf

“If a person is worried about how others may receive him, then he is not aligned with reality”.

Purification of the heart, Imam al-Mawlid trans. Hamza Yusuf

New Niqabi

I first wore niqab in February this year for one day. I was uncomfortable and got a lot of stares and didn’t think I’d go back to it anytime soon. I wore it again today when I went to get some groceries… No staring, nobody cares 😃… I felt very peaceful and at ‘home’. I think I’ll try to wear it as much as I can/ full time going forwards by the permission of Allah. 💛🥳

On emptiness…Secrets of Divine Love by A Helwa

“Allah is As-Samad which does not just mean “self-sufficient” but comes from a root that means “solid, impenetrable, non-hollow.” Allah is the One with no holes, no parts, no separation. Where Allah is metaphorically whole, we are nothing but holes. We are made from atoms, which are 99.99999 percent made of empty space. In essence, when we reach for anything in existence other than Allah, we are reaching for emptiness.

A. Helwa, Secrets of Divine Love